The Big Day...

Well the hospital called me and the big day for my radioactive treatment is next Tuesday and Wednesday. I am very nervous and just wanting this to be over soon. So I may not be blogging on those days but we will see. My family is nervous too because I have been in such poor health. The doctor told my husband that this disease is affecting my brain I think thats what my mood swings and forgetfullness are all about. Noise hurts my brain and sometimes I have to scream to get everybody to be quiet so i can rest my head. I feel crazy sometimes but Doctor assures me this is normal. It will take 1-3 months to start feeling the affects of the treatment and 3-6 months to start feeling better. I know I have complained so much about paying 800.00 a month out of my hubbys checks for health insurance but I am thankful to have it and realize even though we are strapped i would never want to be without it. That is a big motivator for living in a cabin on some land... to be self reliant meaning no bills hardly and life will be easier because We will live much better on 2,300 a month take home pay. Yes I went there that is our take home pay but our bills are killing us especially when your adult children live at home and you support them because they have lost their job. I have had the mobile phones shut off so goodbye 253.00 a month, yes it is killing their social life but we have internet and facebook to talk to their friends or make plans. I had cable shut off goodbye to that 125.00 a month, we pay for Hulu plus and Netflix and I was shocked to learn that we can live without it :) oddly enough all the tv shows are up to date on Hulu... I actually have 500.00 saved now in just 2 weeks because we don't have these bills now and that makes me happy. So I am praying that the land that will work for us to put all those structures on will not sale until I have $3,000 for closing cost. It is 36 acres of agricultural land Not that we wanted that but the County is telling me we can have a permenate structure and up to 4-5 little dwellings for ...Quote.. Ranch hands.. Unquote.. (my kids lol). We have no other use for this property my dream would be simple 5 acres for $5,000 but the county prefers to be difficult. The reason this will work for us is because its only $18,000 and the owner will carry with those closing cost. I hope nobody thought we were rich and we could just go out and buy everything in a month.... this blog is a journey let me tell ya. Be prepared to go through it with us and by it I mean hell sometimes :). You will see that this blog is real life about real life things I don't blog for a job or to make money even though that would be great, however this is just my trials i am broadcasting to the world lol. I hope i didn't bore you too much. I wish you all a beautiful day and remember to smile at somebody today it will bring you joy and greatly bless the person you smile at. Love you all God Bless.