I lost my direction

When I moved to Colorado my dream was to buy some land and build something to live in cheaply or heck even pitch a tent. All I want is self reliance, but I have lost my direction I'm not sure what to do or where to go. After living here for a little over a year now it just doesn't seem like home. I'm still feeling lost now wondering if we made the right choice. I'm feeling a bit discouraged because every time we get up something pulls us back down. My car was in the shop last week it cost $994.00 to fix it but I was able to get them down to $843.00. It was my daughters 25th birthday on the 19th so we went to dinner at Joe's Crab Shack it wasn't what we thought it would be at $174.00 later :( maybe I'm just not happy right now I mean I guess I'm entitled to feel down in the dumps right?. We are paying all the bills as our kids jobs are not giving them any good hours and yet we are still reaping the disrespect from the kids... I don't get it! I can't throw them in the street because they will never make it and yet me and hubby have tried to reason,yell,scream and nothing works. In a perfect world I would win the power ball lottery tonight buy my land build a house and live happily ever after, but we all know this is no perfect world. I need to refocus myself and get a grip.

Thanks for listening. God Bless you all...........

Happy Saturday

Wow its a beautiful day outside, nice and cloudy it is suppose to rain today. I love Fall the feeling of the holidays makes me feel joy. I hope I get to go to Hobby Lobby today. You all have a great day.

We Made IT !!

Well its Friday ya'll and it smells so sweet. I'm not sure what this weekend has in store for us but I'm hoping for atleast one lazy day. I really want to go for a drive outside of Pueblo, somebody told me you can buy huge sacks of potatoes and rice and beans plus I figure I can probably find some big bushels of fruit. I hope all of you have a glorious weekend God Bless.

Life as we know it today...

So I have been reading a few blogs and have discovered there are a lot of depressed people out there. People are really not that different from one another, some just choose to voice how they feel. We all have the same concerns and fears about what is going on with our world today. This very day even though I have been following the news, I realized the Dow is down over 2000 points in the last 14 trading days WOW!. I don't have a 401k and I was thinking about starting one but now seeing what is happening not only in America but foreign countries I will not do it. Many people are just concerned about keeping their families fed, putting food on the table and who can blame them. The jobs are just not there right now and I know a lot of you will disagree with that statement but it is true! if there were so many jobs then don't you think people would choose to work for minimum wage rather then watch their families starve?. I have really been following the news a lot lately because I don't want to put my family in harms way so i have decided to stock up on everything I can!!! I'm not gonna be one who heard about it but brushed it off and then not be able to feed my family or keep some kind of shelter over their heads. So at this point we are hoping for the best but preparing for the worst because there are no guarantees in life. I'm gonna start doing some raw food and natural remedies, I want to start experiencing with a few things. Now don't get what I'm saying wrong I'm not an extremist I am still buying for the holidays and leading a normal life but I'm gonna be smart about everything now. I did find a place to get 20 pounds of potatoes for $6.40 instead of the $5.00 I was paying for 10 pounds :) Everybody have a blessed day and think smart.